I'm sick of trying.. |Kaya| trying to forget.. *Updated & Finished*

by Kaya Tue Apr 30, 2013 4:05 am

"I'm not afraid of the end,
I'm just terrified of waiting for it..."
| T h e B a s i c s |
Name:
Kaya
Nicknames:
Her name is short enough, she has never had a nickname. Feel free to give her one. ^^
Age:
3.6 years.
Gender:
Female.
Sexuality:
Pansexual - Meaning she doesn't care what gender you are, if she likes you then she likes you.
Species:
She has no one true species of wolf, there are so many things mixed into her it's a wonder she looks normal.
Rank:
Gatherer.

"I truly believe that my mask of sanity is about to slip..."
| O u t s i d e |
Coat:
Her coat is quite average in length, not super long, nor short. Being thick around her chest, neck, back, sides, upper legs, and tail, thinner on her lower legs and face. As for how it looks, she tries to keep herself well groomed even in the horror story that is her life. If even the slightest fur is out of place and she can feel it then she instantly licks her fur, much like a feline would, to get the fur to stay down. Due to her OCD with her pelt it almost looks as if her fur was attacked with a straightener for months, being almost perfectly straight though it does fluff out around her chest and cheeks.
Fur Colour:
Her looks are rather bland, being almost completely ebony aside from the few grey flecks mixed into her pelt, her dark pelt lightens slightly around her face and chest into a dark grey that quickly disappears back into the ebony fur that engulfs her physique. As impossible as it seems, her fur seems to get even darker around her eyes making them almost impossible to miss. Her pelt helps her hide in the shadows making a bit harder for the monsters to find her with only relying on her scent that she attempts to mask when being on a 'mission.'
Eye Colour:
Though it is a quite average color her eyes are a very vibrant shade of gold, contrasting against her dark pelt her golden orbs seem to never lose their brightness, even when it is dark out her eyes seem to glow spooking quite a few others until they get used to her.
Scars:
She has many scars but the one that is most notice able circles around a small portion of her maw, the light pinkish hue of the scar being quite a noticable difference from her dark pelt making the scar obvious. As for the story behind it. Not so much.
Physical Build:
She is quite tall for being a female, she is slightly smaller than the average male making her appear much larger than the other females she is seen around, her muscular build just adding to her difference from them. Her muscular build helps her out with getting away from the monsters and avoiding them. Although she is large in physical appearance she is still very graceful, knowing just how to shift her body to have a lot of speed making escapes much easier.

"My feelings are my symptoms,
my life is danger..."
| I n s i d e |
Personality:
Observant - It's hard for her to miss even the smallest detail of something. She notices differences almost instantly and usually will point them out if she thinks it's needed. She can usually tell what's going on just by watching her surroundings.
Stubborn - She hates not being able to do things her way, especially if she doesn't agree with the other options. Though she will probably talk to try to get her point across she won't disobey orders. Her stubbornness usually gets her in trouble because she will more than likely go off to do what she wants after she is done with what she was told to do.
Sarcastic - Sarcasm is a big thing for Kaya, her voice seems to have a natural sarcastic slur/tone to it. Her sarcasm usually shows the most when someone points out something that is completely obvious.
Obedient - Although she hates being bossed around she listens very well to those who give orders, even when she doesn't agree with them. The way she sees it is do some things you don't want to and you have a group, don't listen and disobey everything because you don't agree and you don't have a group and you're back out on your own all alone. So yeah, she listens quite well.
Paranoid - She seems to constantly be looking over her shoulder, not that everyone isn't like that now but her paranoia seems to be a bit worse. Being forced to live in a world where your live is a horror story you tend to get some serious paranoia.
Adaptable - She adapts to situations quite easily, which is why she has made it so long through all of the things that have happened with the nightmare that is now everyone's life.
Conservative/Creative - These are put together because she tends to think of ways to make things last longer or get it so they have a safe place to be. She usually will stash some of the food that she is allowed for emergencies.
Likes:
Having others around her, it seems to chase away the voice until it's silent again. Being able to sleep when she actually can.
Dislikes:
The darkness, the monsters, being alone, the thought of losing anyone close to her.
Weaknesses:
Her mental health has to be one of her biggest weaknesses, along with trust issues. Instead of relying on anyone else, she tries to only rely on herself while helping them.
Strengths:
Her speed and physical build. Insomnia, very helpful in this cruel life, until exhaustion gets to you.
Habits:
Searching through things, trying to take the lead when things get to be bad.
Mental Health:
Due to many encounters with the patchworks and lack of having any contact with any other living being for weeks she has developed a bit a schizophrenic issue. Seeming to have little conversations with the 'voice' she has in her head that has caused her to have a bit of depression also due to constantly hearing that it's her fault those poor creatures had to die.

"Trust takes years to make, but only seconds to shatter..."
| R e l a t i o n s |
Crush:
N/A
Mate:
N/A
Pups:
Though she wants pups of her own she wouldn't want to bring anyone into this world with it being like this. So yeah no pups for her.
Friends:
Anyone still alive. Wether you like em or hate em they are your only ally.
Enemies:
The monsters.
Sire:
Saffron - Deceased
Dam:
Ashen - Deceased
Kin:
Xeno - Deceased
Kinaya - Deceased

"Darling, don't you realize the clock is ticking faster each second...?"
| P a s t & F u t u r e |
History:
For the first year of Kaya's life things were uneventful and quite boring. Once she was a year old her parents let her leave their 'camp site' as she wished so she went to explore the small town there she met the girl who soon became her companion, the girl was 14 at the time. The two became almost inseperatable, Kaya even brought the girl with her to her family's camp site, she absolutely loved the five canines. Things stayed like this for almost a year and a half, her life was seemingly perfect. Then things started changing. It started with the elders, Gramps as many people so caringly referred to Haylee's grandfather became seemingly ill, he wouldn't sleep. By the time he finally passed out from exhaustion it was almost as if someone had given the old man permanent black eyes, his eyes seemed almost sunken into his skull. Kaya had been strolling around outside Haylee's house when she heard the girl's shrill scream. After many attempts to open the door she finally managed to lock her jaws around the circular handle and twist it like she seen the humans do many times with their hands. Going to investigate what happened to her friend she found the family all upstairs Haylee and her mother were both crying on her father. Looking to the bed where they were avoiding looking she seen the old man, face soaked with drying blood. His eyes were gone and his ears had been bleeding. It seemed that the old man hadn't been lying when he said there was something trying to kill him... Many other strange occurances happened like this, elders dying in their sleep, all usually from exessive bleeding of some sort. Slowly it started moving to the adults, it seemed as if something was picking off the humans one by one. As the humans started to thin out whatever was happening seemed to have spanned out into the forest too. Kaya returned to her family's den site to find that they seemed to be having some issues too. Her mother told her about the stories of how wolves and other animals had been dying from bleeding while sleeping, the same thing that had happened in town. Having the gut feeling to go make sure Haylee was okay Kaya said her fairwells to her family and told them she would be back as soon as she could. Once she returned to the town, she had found that Haylee's parents had both died in the same way as Gramps did. Haylee however was different, Kaya could tell instantly. Something was very wrong. How true that sentence was, Haylee went after Kaya with a knife giving her the scar that she has circling a part of her mouth and leading onto her cheek. Mistakingly doing it, Kaya had tried to push Haylee away unknowing to the uncovered outlet that Haylee's dad had been trying to fix. Haylee fell just right against it and Kaya watched as who she thought would be her companion for life was electricuted to death, her body shaking and jerking in odd motions. Before taking off out of the small house she had noticed before she died Haylee seemed to have something attempting to crawl out of her ear, but the electricity had gotten to that too and it was jerking around also. Returning to her family soon after she had the insident with Haylee her mother instantly questioned her about her fresh wound. Explaining everything it seemed as if the humans and everyone else were going mad because of some sort of insect. If only it was only an insect. Kaya soon learned it wasn't just an insect. It was something from in the dreams they would have, more like nightmares one would say. She had nearly died, had she not been woken up when she was. Within not even a month after the incedent with Haylee, Kaya's father had died in his sleep, soon followed by her mother, and sister. The three were picked off so quickly within one day. Kaya and her brother could no longer stay in the area with their family's corpse still laying there so they left, heading farther into the forest hoping to be safer, however they just got themselves deeper into the mess. Kaya's first run in with what is now called a patchwork was the one that scarred her the most mentally. The poor creature, it hadn't done anything. It just wanted it's family back. Kaya had felt so bad for the creature, almost falling into a trance due to the blue light that seemed to flow out of it's eye sockets. She wanted to help it. Luckily her brother managed to get her away just in time to save her from getting the full effects that would lead to her brain eventually just shutting down. Ever since she seems to have a voice in her head that is always so sad, they just want their family back. Her brother's death happened soon after the encounter with the first patchwork, they had been sleeping and she had luckily been sparred the nightmare for that one time, but when she woke up she learned her brother didn't have nearly the luck she did. His chest was torn apart, his eyes bleeding; his ears too. She couldn't stand it any longer and she ran. That's when she found out about a village not far from where she was. Heading in search for it that's where she is now.
Haunting Memories:
Her parents and siblings mortified bodies still haunt her to this day.
Goals:
Overcome the monsters.
Earn a higher rank in the pack.

"So many times I've went to sleep,
wondering if morning would come..."
| E x t r a |
Quotes:
"Forever doesn't seem so nice now, does it?"
Theme Songs:
Linkin Park - Not Alone
Linkin Park - What I've Done

Haylee